This has been my question for quite some time now. Things have just seemed to been going in the opposite direction of where I would like them to be. I've been constantly tired and unmotivated in my relationship with Christ. Where did my fire and passion go? How do I get that spark back? How did I get to where I'm at?
Was it when I chose to date that guy I knew wasn't right? Was it when I decided to go to that party with people I shouldn't have? Or was it when I chose to give into sexual sin? The more and more I felt myself falling, the more and more it became harder to find my way back to Christ. It doesn't make it any easier that I hold guilt and become so ashamed of myself that it makes it so hard to open to God about how I am feeling.
So what do I do now?
I cry out like never before. I get real honest with God because let's be real, He already knows. He knew all of this was going to happen before I even thought about it. I become intentional about cutting off purposeless relationships and things that hinder me from my growth in Christ. I seek guidance and ask for help (this is hard for me because I struggle with pride and thinking I can do everything in my own strength). Seek His face. Get into the word. Simply....just don't quit. I say this to myself and to anyone else who is experiencing the same.
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Dueteromony 4:29
Stay encouraged.
Al.