Does it get better?

Soooo.. God when does it actually get better?

This has been my question for quite some time now. Things have just seemed to been going in the opposite direction of where I would like them to be. I've been constantly tired and unmotivated in my relationship with Christ. Where did my fire and passion go? How do I get that spark back? How did I get to where I'm at?

Was it when I chose to date that guy I knew wasn't right? Was it when I decided to go to that party with people I shouldn't have? Or was it when I chose to give into sexual sin? The more and more I felt myself falling, the more and more it became harder to find my way back to Christ. It doesn't make it any easier that I hold guilt and become so ashamed of myself that it makes it so hard to open to God about how I am feeling. 

So what do I do now? 

I cry out like never before. I get real honest with God because let's be real, He already knows. He knew all of this was going to happen before I even thought about it. I become intentional about cutting off purposeless relationships and things that hinder me from my growth in Christ. I seek guidance and ask for help (this is hard for me because I struggle with pride and thinking I can do everything in my own strength). Seek His face. Get into the word. Simply....just don't quit. I say this to myself and to anyone else who is experiencing the same. 

Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.

Matthew 11:28

But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.

Dueteromony 4:29 

Stay encouraged. 

Al.